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LexXx
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so my friend invited me out to his lake and like his parents r totaly cool with it becuz they love me and i REALLLLY wanan go. id b out there like all next week! WEEE.

but i leave for camp on sunday. and id wana come back in teh city nad wash my clothes and repack before i go to camp (which is like a 15 minute drive from his cottage) so that means my dad or mom would have to drive out and pick me up and bring me back in teh city on thursday or friday nad i doubt they go for it
BUT  I WANNA GO!

Current Mood: anxious anxious

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so summer is starting to get on my nerves becuz well.. everyones going away and im still here. GAHHHHHHH. i kinda want skool to start but then again i love just laying around doing nothing till i make plans at 7:00. haha 
11 days till i go to camp. so i cant wait. im really excited i love Cedarwood.
13 days till my friend comes home who im DIEING to see and who realllllllllly wants to hang with me. i miss him alot. hes been at his dads for almost 3 weeks now. and we dont get to talk THAT much and it sucks. but once hes home well hang out alot weeeeewoooo.
but he has to wait a whole other week cuz when he gets back im gone.
and even tho everything seem so close.. its so far. and im trying to find ways to spend my days as productivly and possible. but blah.


i wish it was august.

Current Mood: anxious anxious

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&&  no one ever asked me if i cared
or how i felt.
or gave an honest opinion
to what i was thinking.
so i took off
okay
i left without goodbyes
and plunged head first
okay
i fell down.
&& u werent there to help me up.

&& no one ever cared to ask me
what i felt.
so i ditched time
heading downward
& now.. its just too late
i can not be saved.
i will never be unbroken.



Current Music: textbook case-with honor

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&& theres all these spaces inbetween my fingers.
for faith & love & god & strength;
but your fingers fit so nicely there...
so ive got room between my toes for those;
& my conscience floats around non-conformety
with consumption of drugs & alcohol;
& these pretty thoughts dance in my head about political standers
and activists leaning in on stolen conversations
made up of words i wish i could burn
and shape into my own
like you let me do babe.
pressing thumbs through computer screens;
reinventing communication devices to meet our standers
she rambles;
he lets her;;
she stumbles;
he gets her
to pick herself up in the shadows of sin
in the most unlikely ways
imaginable.
& it feels like heaven...
he teaches her with out a chalk board,
just a bible hidden inside them, locked away;
kept away,
like the way he turns her on
body, spirt & mind.
taste me;
oh wise one,
im intellegent candy
dipped one too many times,
hard outside;
chewy core.
adopt my recipe;
and turns these sighs into fire
desire,
its frightning how lucky we are to think freely my love.
 

Current Music: speeding cars-imogen heap

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I'm a person just like you
But I've got better things to do
Than sit around and fuck my head
Hang out with the living dead
Snort white shit up my nose
Pass out at the shows
I don't even think about speed
That's something I just don't need

I've got the straight edge

I'm a person just like you
But I've got better things to do
Than sit around and smoke dope
'Cause I know I can cope
Laugh at the thought of eating ludes
Laugh at the thought of sniffing glue
Always gonna keep in touch
Never want to use a crutch

I've got the straight edge

Current Music: a moment suspended in time-underoath

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